So here's a much needed update some of you guys know what's been going on in my life but some of you guys have no idea LOL.

So 3 months ago I left my husband because of many reasons I won't post here cause im an adult and im not gonna trash talk cause that's imature.

Im currently back with my first love from 10 years ago his dad made us break up cause of an age thing and well he did steal my virginity ha! But after all these years I've never stoped loving him sounds crazy huh but my theripist says she thinks its a very good thing im with him and she very much approves and encourages me to do what I've planed I was shocked I thought she would tell me I was crazy. he's very good to me omg its like we just picked up where we left off he has not changed a bit well except for all his tattoos and pericings and there's 1 that just I LOVEEEEE makes him soooo sexy Mmmmmm. This man is so damn sweet and he does and would do anything for me he makes me so damn happy if It was not for his dad he would have been the man I would have married but....... we have planed that when my divorce is finalized that I will be settling him down so ya were getting married and as he says he wants his own midget and im giving him one LOL ya he calls kids midgets . The other awesome thing about him is he LOVES my kids and they love him my son asks all the time to see him and thank god he's around I see him every week he treats my kids like gold and I've seen such a diffrent side of raven that's nice for a change plus raven needs a good positive man in his life and so does lilli .


I am also moving to alabama to move in with him im so excited he says he needs me allllll the time he's verrrrrrry affectionite and I love that he's that way he is the perfect man same as he was 10 years ago . Funny thing about the whole thing is this came outta left field I was not even looking for this. I've been in contact with him over the years and he just sent me a message outta the blue and well the next thing I know were right where we left off . I got to stay with him the whole week of my birthday that was nice and im currently with him as I type this I love spending practicly all my time with him .

God Im so glad I got him back you have no friggin idea for 10 years I still held a flame for him he just claimed back his spot that was always his.


Oh another good thing about him is no one liked my husband not my family not my friends no even people who are aquainted they begged me for years to leave him but everyone who knows james and who has got to meet him this past month the first thing they say is he's is soooo cute and talks about how good he treats me and say at least he don't look like a weasliey snake like the EX and funny thing is I don't say anything about my ex husband an they have there opinion of him from there own experiance . So thank god everyone likes my man <3

Im gonna post a few pics of us on here ya were dorks and my best friend kinda got us off gaurd and stuff LOL

Also my birthday last week rocked it was us 3 all over again same as 1998 but the only differance was were all legal drinking age and we all got tattoos and pericings now . It was a blast and ya I got toasted !

For shits and giggles here's us in 1998 this was halloween night and we all slept like this in the bed my mom was cool with it lol.

( from left to right is Me, James my best friend tiffany) ya we were dorky kids !

I have not updated this thing in FOREVERRRR ok so im gonna post some new HOTTTT ass pics and sat is my birthday im gonna go eat play pool drink a little and me and my home dog are gonna get matching tatts and the aritst is gonna give me a free pericing for my b day so im gonna get the side of my lip peirced woot! Life is good ! That is all LOL plus I update more on VF and myspace links can be found on my LJ profile


Also more pics are on my VF!

So here's a few pics I took today I needed some of us cause we haven't took any for like a long time lol. Things are good our way raven starts school next month im so nervous. I can't believe in like 4 months lillianas gonna be a year this comming halloween. were gonna make her a halloween cake it seems to fit since she's a samhain baby :D . Ok so now on to the pics more here under the cut

He wuvvvzzz me!

(  More pics here )

So figured I would post here but really like anyone cares to read my LJ even though I try and comment on everyones from time to time. So here's some updates !


Been running 3 miles everyday ! So far since having lillibug I've lost over 30lbs im like 10l to 15 lbs from my normal weight! She's gonna be 8 months this week. She's like 21 lbs and she screams mama were learning dada she's trying to crawl she gets on all fours and goes about 2 whole crawls she's trying though.


Ravens going very good on his meds since he's on a full dose, now he has his outburst from time to time but nothing like before. We went yesterday and got him all his school stuff im gonna be a mess when aug 8th comes
:( . Im so worried about school I just don't think he's ready enough for it nor am I.


also for those of you who didn't already know I work from home , so I get to stay home with the kids.


Jasons still at harley! Doing his thing.


Things are good with us ;) !

If anyone in my area wants to join me in my daily 3 mile runs email me! I always enjoy company ! Plus fey-ggots leaving me for the next week lol.


Guess that's pretty much all for now!

Dear, Mr.Woodpecker & ho's



Hello my feathered friend why do you taunt me so. Every morning at 7 am you inisit on pecking my gutters. that's right my gutters have you forgoten you are a WOODPECKER not a metal gutter pecker. I hear you tap tap tap and my house sounds like a battle field "hurry everybody down". An once again you have woken me . I sneak out side and see you pecking I scream, and you fly away to my backyard tree and you sit there with this menicing stare while you scoff at me. Yes my friend I see you you evil little pecker. Then one day as I catch you again tap tap tap you have the nerve to bring your ho's too. I see them all chillin just with you . Now are you trying to make my life misserable yes you are I run you off everyday and you bring back an army your fleet of ho's. One day my friend I will have you one day I will have my revenge. Why can't you peck on the neibors house they love to make noise just and much as you do in the odd hours of the day and night. Why is it that you thought once a day was not good enough to taunt me that now at 5pm you must come again and peck my gutters is this your way of having too much woodpecker fun.oh I get it now you were scaning the neiborhood an said hum.... there gutters look nice I shall make it my goal in life to peck and chill with my ho's and drive these people INSANE. I don't care what it takes to get you to move away I will take my headless manicain and plop that sucker on my roof to drive you away, but im sure if I do that will not phase you as you will only just peck off her boobs and let you ho's poo all over it. Im sorry you got kicked out of woodpecker school cause you did not know the differance between wood and gutters and now your on this crazy war path like a pathetic little EMO kid. Please Please you and your ho's please move next door they have gutters too. give my house a rest I really would like to have a nice sleep for a change. If you refuse I have friends who will come over pay $5 bucks for admission and you can guess the rest.



Yours truly,

Gonna have my revenge someday!

AKA : Starr/ Ash

Hoping in a month that Lilliana will be crawling, from her tummy she gets her knees in crawling mode but her little face plants down in the floor lol she hasn't figured out how to get both arms and knees at the same time lol on another note she's sitting up all by herself she's 6 month & 20lbs now (porker)she seems to be learning something new everyday.she's finally standing up in her stuff ie saucer,walker I think it took her a bit to do that cause her legs are so fat lol. Posted new pics of her in the both kids album too.


On to raven now he's been sick for 3 days with a nasty stomach viris ewwwww..... man all the crap I've had to clean up . He's got his BD specialest doc appt set for the 5th.


I got board the other day decided to make some new dreads with the shit load of extra hair I have in huge rubermaid containers.

So here's a pic excuse my getto pic takin ass its not really ment to be a fancy pic I was too lazy .

The 2nd pic is so ya can see the color better I did black with a few accents of red wine.







And so on to me and jason things are ok I applied at the harley davidson shop (same place jason works) im hoping soon I find out if I get the job. I think it would be cool to work there and hey we would def save on gas lol.

Next there's my mom issue again I say just fuck it ,fuck her, fuck them all they can rot in hell I give up she can have her new fucking family. She hasn't called in over a week and she won't answer my phone calls or return mine actually no one will answer the damn phone. Its pretty shitty that my own mother cares about a man than her own family and funny thing is when he actually figures out the real her he's gonna send her packing and nope im not gonna be there for her for shit she can pick up her own damn peices. Well I've got my dad and S mom so that's all I should really need there the only ones (other than my decesed S dad ) that have ever really been there for me or a parent I don't know why I always let my mother back in my life when I push her wout but she always wiggles her ass back in some how. So im finally just DONE ! If she calls I will not answer if she text I will not respond if she knocks at my door I will not answer !




Ok end rant.....



I know this is one long post huh lol now on to other things I've made some cool new friends they seem to be on the same page as me that's cool also found a old friend I haven't talked to in a long ass time *waves* Hi krissy if u read this lol . ( waffles haha) and then again some friends become distant over time just how life goes I guess.


Oh and I need someone to put some mojo voodoo huckamajoe on my house and land its cursed no seriously its cursed not shitting u hell I wouldn't shit you man your my favorite turd hahaha.


Also just waiting around on some good karma to shoot my way I think it missed the train or something if you see him could ya tell him to take 75 north to exit 285 thanks that would be great. Oh and don't forget to tell him its the house with the flames on the mailbox . LoL


Well that's all for now well atleast all my brain can think of for now...... until next time ! Do ya ever just wanna hop on the tardus and just go!( that's ment for the dr. Who fans)

So I've been emailed about how to fix our finances and like 50% have told me to work in a strip club I've been thinking about it but still on the fence. There's a good point that its good money and bad points too. im just really unsure what is the best choice any advice would help.

Yep yep that's what I said " thank god for skinny white boys with mohawks" I love mine bunches Mmmm.... he's a sweet man does bunches for me. Gonna miss him at work today :( we will be kid free this weekend so yay for us yep yep... I get my baby all weekend oh the naughty things to do .... lol

So took some pics of my babys one pics of all the kids and jason he just
got off work lookin tired and has a black eye omg it got so bad him and
geoff had to be dicking off and someone was bound to get hurt. Course it
was jason the other pics new too it jason and raven this is what jason
looks when he's not blackened and fresh off work lol. Guess ill post
jasons eye this pics like 2 mins after it hapened it got much worse over
the night its all purple now.

( Pics of my babys & sexy man )